Abortion kills a mother’s spirit AND child…but help IS out there



For 40 days, daily I visited planned parenthood’s Auschwitzesque brick building on Tustin@22fwy in Orange. Spontaneous, 75 vivographs of everyday people defending life emerged.

The most humbling thing has been meeting many beautiful and courageous mothers who have lost, for whatever reason, a child at the hands of an abortionist.   The mother in crisis does NOT kill her child; the abortionist, whom i call “abortogods” did the killing.

Yes, she can take the pill of destruction; but a supposed medical professional coerces her into the step.  If the mother had the full picture of what was happening, the help that is available and the future of her torment, she would run like a deer from pp.

 The abortogod, he or she killed the child; she did not. Did we blame the twin’s mothers when Hitler’s Dr. Mengele’s experimented, operated and killed them? Then, don’t blame the moms in desperation. We bear the responsibility of a nation to end this. We must pray and help.  And ACT!

Some, like Tanya, a mother and Beatrice, a grandmother have suffered the loss of children/grandchildren and have gone public. Others remain confidential for whatever reason a mother does. WE MUST MAINTAIN THEIR ANONYMITY for their safety.

The main reason is, unlike the slick PP marketing, abortion puts mothers at risk long after their child is gone.

Life’s issues and circumstances do NOT just go away as she is driven out the driveway, past the sidewalks of life; they must be dealt with and handled.  Look what she starts out with after the worst day of her life, that of losing her child:

Physically, there is perforated uteri, damaged tissues, incontinence, inability to have another child and so much more including death.  Another Tanya, Tonya Reaves died 12 hours following her child’s death July 2012: she was abandoned by PP staffers comatose, no charts, no professional med explanation at a local ER.  A real hospital for healing.  Not a cash and carry out mill like PP.  PP is NOT a medical facility; they are a cash business that rips off everyone that walks in.  Everyone.

Emotionally, mom’s issues run the gamut and the mother runs the gauntlet.  Fear of discovery, shame, disgust, anger, dirty, betrayal by her man, ruined relationships are just a few.  These last years~sometimes for life.

Spiritually, there are real consequences; most immediately feel a dread or sense of oppression; do not right this off, people, as “just an emotional woman’s issue”…it’s her hormones or time of the month.  It is not…she has been changed for a lifetime. But hope endures.

These mothers feel spiritual remorse that idle talk betrays. She is in bondage; evil does not quit after the procedure; it tries to saddle the mother with a lifetime of regret and blame her for “killing her child”.  It is not the mother’s fault.  Yes, she “allowed” it.  Well, if being desperate and vulnerable, handled and hustled by men, “friends”, “family”, is her fault than go ahead:  revictimizer her and throw her back to the pavement.  PP knows what they are doing and how to push the woman’s buttons.  Give her a break: hope for the future and a chance at healing.  Plus the dads/husbands, grandparents, abortion workers ALL need to come to God.  He is waiting with open, merciful, forgiving arms.

Abortion does NOT happen in a vacuum either: there are a boat load of life issues that surround the death of the child that are not cured.

And frankly, it’s none of our business the whys; we all make mistakes. Aborted moms need love, kindness, compassionate and patient help.  The how for healing is below and much more important.

Moms instinctively know it’s a child…someday.  Some know it the same day they lose her or him.  Others it is revealed in a dream or even seeing a stroller with a young child will set her off.  These are not blobs, even if after 12 years of schooling an abortogod (a false god who chooses who and when to kill or let live) claims they are sub or non-human.

What a fool he must be; must have got “F’s” on his -ology classes.  Things like fetology, embryology, anatomy, physiology, biology…even maternity.  But, God even desires the salvation of men and women, in California doctors, nurses and midwives, who kill His children.  He wants all to live forever happily.

Imagine this:  God sent us letters explaining when a kid is a kid.   He called out Jeremiah this way: “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you.  Before you were born I dedicated you.”  Jer 1: 5-6.

God knows ALL the circumstances that yield a pregnancy and still allows us to exercise free will; He doesn’t cede His power, though.   Look at the most famous unwed mother who could have been stoned: the Virgin Mary.  “When (her cousin) Elizabeth heard Mary’s greeting, the infant leaped in her womb…”    Blobs don’t leap, products of conception do not suck their thumb or breathe (yes, preborns breathe).  Elizabeth continued: “Most blessed are you among women (Mary).  and BLESSED IS THE FRUIT of your womb.

A mother is a blessing, a woman is a gift.  Men, we mess up.  Chivalry is arising; like God, it is NOT dead.  Even and especially in a boy toy world of porn and objectified sex, familial destruction, there is hope.  Soon to be saint John Paul the Great said it perfectly:

 “Christ ‘assigns as a duty to every man the dignity of every woman’ ”

~St. John Paul the Great, Theology of the Body// Angelus monologues

Guys, it is OUR responsibility to protect her.  Defend her dignity.  Who?  Every woman.  And, please be a man, don’t pull the “Eve made me eat it” routine.

Aborted mothers need love, counseling, help, patient listening and good counseling.  The kind that Becky & her team confidentially provides through the OC branch of Project Rachel known as Hope and Healing at  800-722-4356.  Becky and her team long have been a defender of women; she helps intercede for rape victims at hospitals.

Here is the insidious truth: Every woman is violated, every aborted woman was raped by the abortionist since he or she is not practicing medicine. She was “groomed” to that moment: horrible and inadequate counseling, lies after lies.

How can sticking knives inside a woman to kill a kid or lethal injecting poison into a six month (same age as John in Elizabeth’s womb who leaped for join) child be considered good medicine?  It is a tax payer supported cash and carry out business.  Nothing more.

And don’t give me this rot they do mammograms; Dr. Joel Brind, China and Indian studies prove a direct, causal and logical link between abortion and latent breast cancer.

All planned parenthood does is create another product and service to make money on: referring out for screening for the disease THEY CREATE in the first place.  That’s like rewarding the firemen for putting out the arson fire they set in the first place.

Every abortive mother needs help, not to mention their co-dependent enablers…and handlers.  They so often desire intensely to pay for their “sins”, make up and repair by reparation, and  help other women not make the same mistake.  Very commendable but if this is out of control, the abortive mother can “revictimize’ herself, by becoming so obsessive that she cannot move into a better place in her life.  I have suffered personally this  type of “messiah” gotta save the world complex too often.

I am so humbled by one courageous, smart and beautiful woman who is suffering through this, that i wrote a song to underscore what really goes on between mother and child…if only mom gets the chance to listen to her heart.  With her permission, some day that song will be available to show post-abortive mothers the truth.  But not until that time it is prudent.

Other than the rare Tanya and Beatrice, total confidentiality is a MUST to protect both the mother AND her family.  And frankly, even when they feel the need to come forward, it may not be the best for them to speak out too soon; they have the hope but need the healing.  Unfortunately, so many people can be insensitive and cruel to a post-abortive woman precisely when she needs the help and healing the most

Abortion solves nothing; it only increases the vacation fund of abortogods, who need to know the truth, repent and start doing real medicine.  11 year old Dr. Isaac already proved with little medical training that something that swims and moves like a baby, sucks her thumb like a baby and silently screams like a baby when facing medical grade assault weapons that have killed 1000 million so far.  Is a baby.  Not a blob, choice or convenience.  There is absolute proof a mother connects early on, if not immediately after conception.  It’s more than hormones and emotional ties: God designed her that way, with instincts to love and protect.  And serve.

God does NOT want vulnerable, post-abortive mothers to carry 1000 pound ankle balls through life.  He, the Divine Mercy, wants people to step in.  Each life is different; each woman’s circumstances.   Each solution is different.

It really tears my heart thinking what a mom must go through; there is little relief at the loss of a child. Male pressure, false expectations appearing real (acronym for FEAR), concern for abnormalities, wrong sex of the child, financial pressures etc. The reason doesn’t ease the pain, nor bring him or her back.   Results include dysfunctional relationships, better chance of not bonding and divorce, inability to have children, depression.

Bishop Kevin, the ordinary of the diocese of Orange has held more preemies in his HAND, singular, than I have held eleven brand newbies minutes after birth in two.

You might think it is an obsession being prolife for me. Well, if fighting for the moms and their kids is obsession, count me in.  And if defending and helping post abortive mothers is obsessive squared, count me in twice.  Someone needs to because this is not going away.  It is not a wart to excise or a cold to get through.  It is life for millions.   Uhm, based on LifeNew’s recent report, billions.

As of  April 2014, latest estimate is 1720 million or 1.72 billion.  Adjust for multiples, you have the largest victim group in history that needs help today.  What, maybe 700 million living mothers (minus those killed on the table)

Church wake up!  Think about this: the excellent org Survivors of the Abortion Holocaust (survivors.la) is based on this reality:

EVERYONE born since 1973 is missing one third of  their friends and families.  The death of this one third of humanity is a dying business and line the pockets of planned parenthood and Abort Inc.  They are dead.  Which means one in three women in the stores, at work and school, IN THE CHURCHES, are post-abortive.  And need help.  They walk and live among us; and we with them.

Fr. Stephen Imbarratto, a passionate prolife pastor of Sacred Heart in Albuquerque allowed a twin abortion to occur.  Similar to my and my bishop’s experience holding life, Fr. Stephen watched it pass away.  He has that singular focus to help every woman.

So, today, he talks direct to the congregation that we know you are out there, and confidentially we have and want to help.  That’s putting Walk (for Life) to the Talk.    Don’t give me another committee or schedule a meeting at 2020 lookahead strategizing sessions UNLESS we are willing to be active 365 and wise in defending life.  Off the sidelines, on the sidewalks AND for those who have been victimized by a society Pope St. John Pault the Great called “the culture of death”.

Post-abortive women need help.  NOW! So does her spouse, whether or not he is still around, and others touched by this evil.

One stat says 25% of aborted kids are Catholic; which means 25% have Catholic moms. Our churches and schools must realize this is not going away. If we shut down every PP in America today, we have a whole gen, millions of moms living with their loss, mostly in secret, for life. They need not grieve alone. Help is near by: Project Rachel/Hope and Healing at 800-722-4356   The team will give you compassionate, individualized follow up care.  It IS essential; if you know someone who is post-abortive, give them the number.  Someday they will thank you.

Every abortion has consequences: 50% of the customers are dead, plus a few moms. Every adult customer (this is not medicine, folks) lives with the emotional, spiritual and way too often, serious physical effects of abortion.

mother and invisible born child

“Mom, i forgave you the day i left the earth!”


It doesn’t matter if it happened at seven weeks or seven months, there is an eternal connection between mother and child. Size has NOTHING to do with it.
Abortion is cosmetic surgery of the heart, soul and spirit of two beings.   It is disingenuous and flippant for people to slough it off, like “oh get over it” as if abortion is a tummy tuck, breast reduction or hang nail removal.  It is a life taken at will; the most powerful force in the universe (far outstripping the three major physics forces) is the bond between a mother and child.  It is like breaking the bond of an atom when it happens to a mom, millions of times a year, worldwide a million a week are killed by this evil.

Don’t suffer in silence; like the picture sculpture shows, your child has already forgiven you. For Catholics, confession is available to start the process but you need another human to walk this path with you. Call 800-722-4356 and leave a confidential message if you go to voicemail. Moms, like many, i have fought for women’s rights for years. The right to a joy-filled life and not be abused, the right to seek help, the right to wholeness. The right to be loved. The right to chivalrous men. We can work on this last one for i will never conceive a child.

Good news: Every mother can be restored in time. Everyone. Nothing is beyond God’s power to remedy. With good care and lots of considerate people in a mother’s life.

31 months ago on the 9th, Donna returned to heaven. I guess i have real sympathy pains for aborted moms. I suffered while watching her suffer for nine months, trying everything to get her healed; i was more stubborn than she, because she knew the spiritual healing came midyear, but the physical healing was not to be.
But an abortive mother suffers all of her life at different levels, physical, emotional and spiritual; all we can do is provide encouragement, solace, silence, listening, love…and get her free help.  Abortion is hell’s answer to creation and life.  How much longer must we serve hell’s managers?  How many more Tonya Reaves must die, abandoned at the ER by planned parenthood Chicago hours after killing her Emanuel child, comatose and without med charts or explanations?

I will ask Donna, the consummate mother,  to pray for each and every one of you: you know whom you are. Don’t suffer alone; if you know someone, give them the number. I gave it out today to someone who needed it; so should you.

Men,please join me in becoming better about and sensitive to this megapandemic need.  Close to a billion worldwide women suffer in silence needlessly.

I for one will not abandon, nor desert, someone who needs our help.  Post-abortive mothers are women, uniquely and most complexly created for great purposes by a Divinely Merciful God.  Let us act accordingly.

On some occasions, I save some of the soil from the graeside when a friend or loved one is buried and at least a year into the future, i present them with a tiny small garden using it.  Not to be morbid, but a reminder of the fact they may be gone but they are still important parts of our lives.  Sometimes i do the same for women facing this silent and debilitating suffering, find in some physical way that their child is still precious, in heaven.  And that they, the mother for life of this little life, are important too.

Who will speak up for the little ones and their mothers in grief?  I, for one; won’t you?

Len Beckman

Ladies, there is hope; you can be healed.

Hope & Healing after abortion: Call 800-722-4356.  You ARE worth it.  We are patient.

Jesse Jackson and Margaret Sanger love blacks in danger off the plantation

OK, why not just start with the cutesy stuff about life.  Kids in mom’s arms, toys all over the place.  Gifted with eleven kids, this should be an easy thing.  But, like a good firefighter who pulls the most vulnerable child from the kindergarden room first, let’s talk black.  At 12% of the population in America but with over 50% of the abortions happening to black kids, i think Sanger has her dream fulfilled.  We are getting rid of black Americans faster than they can reproduce.  And Margaret is happy, wherever she is.


Listen to Hitler’s protege, who in the early 30s took her racial hygiene ideas to the National Socialist party in Der Fuehrer’s Germany.  A couple years later, Adolf came up with the Nuremberg Racial Laws, which turned Jews into costume Jewry, property.  Like the blacks at kill mills today.  NYC, ferocious in killing blacks, 3/5ths (like 3/5ths voting value after the Civil War) are killed versus birthed alive.

So, the CEO emeritus of the planned parenthood federation said this: “We do not want word to go out that we want to exterminate the Negro population,” she said, “if it ever occurs to any of their more rebellious members.” Hat tip to Woman’s Body, Woman’s Right: A Social History of Birth Control in America, by Linda Gordon.  Jesse call your office and Mr. Sharpton, whattaya think of dem apples?  I guess it hasn’t occurred to the national self-appointed black leadership that killing blacks before daylight has a geometric, in other words, massive impact for generations until the end of time, Jesus returns or the Cubs win the world series.

Jesse Jackson said it best:  “Abortion is black genocide”; head scratcher is why the tune retune on his part.

Our black friends went from the plantation (ask Star Parker), then valued at 3/5ths homo sapiens…to a 100% person, only to buy into killing blacks being totally cool 12 times the rate of whites. In NYC, where abortion is more common than tummy tucks, foreign born taxi drivers  and sushi, over 50% of abortions are black kids.  Small black kids are killed 60% more than born alive.  Maybe the “more rebellious” need to get off the political plantation buffet line and help where it is needed the most: perfectly fine black kids inside violated black mothers.  Any mother who walks into a planned parenthoodlum lair will be violated by someone; if not the man in her life, the Man’s surrogate corporate entity, the abortogod on duty doing his extreme Edward Scissorhands impression to a woman’s womb.

Add in, a nanny/foster government as the single mom’s husband, and fatherlessness leads to more black teens kiling black teens.

They learn from the abortogods that it’s ok to choose who lives, who dies.  Amen, Bryan Kemper. From discriminating for color of skin, to killing kids with skins of color.  Planned parenthoodlums don’t necklace or lynch by rope; they use medical grade assault knives or lethal inject full term living black babies through the brain.

 The most evil corporation in human history is more efficient than Sen Byrd’s Ku Klux Klan.  They kill more blacks in 4 days, than the senator’s kkk killed in 100 years.  Remember, listen to Jesse Jackson.  “Abortion IS black genocide”.  The only thing that changed since he said it in 1977, is planned parenthood gives him more tax dollars for helping them kill kids than the black preborns have a chance to grease his palms with.  PP is so good at it, 61% of the black children in NYC, the abortion efficiency capital of the world, die by medical knives.  Guv Andrew Cuomo doesn’t like pro life centers either; neither does Dr. De Blasio, its mayor.  When the final script for Black History is written, this will be the worst time for blacks ever.  Worse than the slave ships. Worse than the plantations.  Tho Margaret Sanger thinks a dead black kid is a good thing, one less “useless eater”, post Dred Scott,  every black child is not 60% human; nor is the preborn child.  

Pull out an unused, pristine anatomy or embryology text from the abortogod’s library. They are 100% male or female; not 60% voting, 40% dead matter.   Sanger’s soldiers live on to kill another day, though America is waking up to its sin of commission and worse, the worldwide export of its vile evil to every country but three. Such as Ireland, who codified NOT killing babies in 1831 and the 1860s, is faltering, as we celebrate the de-paganizing the Emerald Isle today.  March 17th in the year of the Lord 2014.  St Patrick rid the Isle of human sacrifice; modern sick people want to bring it back.  I thought the snakes drowned back then; apparently not.

We need to take up a collection.  Planned parenthood is only getting $2 million a day in tax money.  It’s just not enough to buy an patient viewable ultrasound machine in any kill mill.  Ultrasounds cost money both to purchase, install and moms tend to not abort when they see their baby is a ….hmm hem  a   ahhh   baby.  There is a Dr. Isaac interview at YouTube.com/user/Lenbeckman in which he teaches those class cutting doctors, nurses and midwives what a baby looks, smells and comes out like.  All but what they taste like and for that you need to contact a human sushi Oriental take out restaurant, one from colum “w” as in womb.
 So, let’s help out the Gynecologist in Chief’s favorite charity, planned parenthood.  We can call it the Girl Scouts Don’t Like Planned Parenthood Ultrasound purchase machine.  We will mount them outside the building so no one at PP will get in trouble with Cecile Richards.  She only makes $1000/a day and Margaret Sanger would roll over in her grave.  Who’s in?  Let’s help…we already are doing commercials for abortogods (those who choose life or death) who missed medical classes like fetology, embryology, physiology, biology and anatomy.  The only -ology the doctors, nurses and midwives who kill kids took was moneyology, apparently.
Fellow sojourners of life, life lovers all.  In the meantime, there is an alternative. Giant 2D before and after photo album.
Get a giant picture of a developing baby, available on the net.  Maybe five months (20 weeks); better is all nine months.  Survivors of the Abortion Holocaust (survivors.la) make great use of them, usually peacefully.  Of course, a UCSB Professor of black studies, feminism, porn and sex named Young and her Restless crew assaulted 16 year old peaceful young, like Thrin Short.  Thrin was having adult conversations with students, something that used to be called “universitas” or dialogue, maybe debate.  Just discussing issues with students who are denied the truth by Young professors of leftology and get violent to make sure they foster academic freedom FROM the truth.
 But though we battle “How Long is it?” Monty Python style, whether,  over 6 billion, 600 million, 6000 years to have mankind on the earth, whether created special or evolved in who cares fashion, today there really is only 16 seconds of life for most babies crossing the sidelines and sidewalks into the grasp of planned parenthoodlums at their front alley kill mills.
 A little more time, usually three days for the kid to come out alive or dead before drowning in a clean, cool Plaza toilet, for ABQ’s ACLU sanctioned baby brain lethal injection centers called Southwestern Womens Options.  16 seconds to stop abortogods from killing a perfectly fine human specimen… or speciwoman.
Also, don’t forget the mom’s after pic,  to get a One Hour Baby Photo, showing the mangled remains after Dr. Demented takes out his/her, medical grade assault knives, a la Bizarro Edward Scissorhands.
Those currettes (spoon shaped knives) have killed 1000 million kids and counting.  Of course, Dr. Sella has prefected the art that the ACLU loves: doing lethal injection with poison in the brain of full term kids; then mom has to wait on the toilet next door at the Plaza Inn for it to be born alive or dead.  No 911 is allowed; only the death watch.  These neo-pagans are just plain evil.  It’s almost like they are the western Hell’s Kitchen, no insult to the New York entity.

Finally, black on black teen crime is epidemic with fathers missing or being forced out.  So, Miss Laura…figure 3 million crimes against the elderly and defenseless are averted each year by good people stopping bad people with guns. Usually just brandishing it works.

ImageSometimes not. However, 1000 million kids killed by abortogod wielding curettes with titles like doctors, (nurses and midwives in California) don’t seem to matter to the alzheimer’s and blind media.

The safest place for blacks is on the plantation.  There, they were property and at least kept alive.  Today, blacks are property if the mother says so and almost 40% nationally, black preborns are killed before they can vote with their first cry.  Or course, Tonya Reaves is proof the occasional black mother dies with her child “for the cause” or “for the children”, whichever comes first.

The Playmate of the 20’s Sanger is happy to “exterminate the Negro population”.  One kid at a time.  And Jesse used to think it was wrong.  But, there’s no money in keeping the black family intact and off the national government plantation.  Ask Star Parker, Walter Williams, Thomas Sowell, Dr. Ben Carson and Larry Elder, black leaders who value black young people as future citizens, not cesspool products following an abortogod cutlery demo.  The most glaring irony is Carson’s story of being able to unjoin conjoined twins fastened at the head, while he couldn’t save his twin preborns from miscarriage.

Comments anyone?  Quick before blacks drop from 11% to 10.

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